One Month Mark

Okay, it's been one month. One month married and one month in Ohio. I still don't have the urge to run home screaming (still an option though) but I am sure David would tell you I haven't been the easiest person to live with lately. Aside, from the run of the mill: "Can you find it in your heart TO NOT LEAVE YOUR SHOES IN LIVING ROOM FOR ME TO TRIP ON?" and his reply "WTF is your problem? Yeah, AS SOON AS YOU LEARN TO NOT LEAVE YOUR HAIRBRUSH ON THE BATHROOM SINK!" I expected all that, those exchanges are normal as we spend the next few months training each other. However, I did not expect to feel resentment toward David's job.

Resentment that his job takes him away from me, that he has a place to go everyday and something to do, that he interacts with people and those people have become friends. It's flawed, selfish thinking, I know. David needs his job in order for us to survive. I still find myself longing for the days David would go in early and come home early. The whole afternoon would stretch before us full of promise. We could go out and do all the things I love and David hates. Aimlessly driving and walking, coffee shops, ice cream runs, shopping. Now, we have to cram all that into the weekend with the rest of the population. The days when I was Samina and not "The boss's wife" and David did not work long hours.

I know what everyone is saying, "Get a job, Samina. Go out and find people." Those things are difficult when you don't have a car, there are no jobs and nowhere locally to meet people. I see people my age around. If they are female, kids are attached to them. I like kids but it's hard to hang out with the "kidded" when you are kidless. I'm not going to hang out with a bunch of random dudes. I already do that on the weekend. Excuses, excuses I know.

David and I are still trying to figure out if it's even worth it for me to get a job right now. We plan on moving in less than a year. Wouldn't it be better for me just to sit tight for a bit until we find a house then get a job? I'm not sure if it is but it sounds smarter. I'm sure it will all get worked out. We will find a nice, reasonably priced house. We get situated, we buy another car, one that isn't stick and actually likes to start when you turn the key. I use this car and get this I DRIVE to places. Yeah, yeah good plan, right?