The Ball is Still Rolling

Today I started the paperwork to transfer bookstores so I can secure a job in Ohio. David says the job climate is...less than ideal out there. So the sooner I start the process the more likely it is I'll be able to nab a spot and get at least some money coming in to contribute to the household.

I will continue to look for non-retail work,something with hours closer to David's. Something that doesn't have me directing customers to the restroom,picking up trash a foot away from a trash can, telling customers that we do not sell Sarah Palin calendars. We also do not sell software,DVD players, video games. We do not appraise antiques, we have no public computers, we have no copy machine and the books do not check out they are yours forever because we are NOT A LIBRARY! WE ARE A BOOKSTORE! I digress...

Getting a job in Ohio is difficult for me. It is going to push me way out of my comfort zone. I will have to either A) learn to use the bus system, B) walk in bad weather or a combination of my two biggest fears C) DRIVE and in BAD WEATHER.

Let me digress again...I am afraid of driving. Terrified beyond comprehension. So terrified that it took me years to obtain a license and after I got it I NEVER EVER GOT BEHIND THE WHEEL AGAIN. It's been over two years, at least. I cried before my test and after I slept for like four hours because I came down with Strep throat. My body and mind were so consumed with stress I got sick. I like to say I'm mentally incapable of driving. My friends and family like to say I am lazy. But they still drive me around...anywhere and everywhere I need or want to go. They may bitch about it but they do it. I have worked in a town 15-20 minutes away from my home five days a week for four years and I have been dropped off and picked up every time. I have never used public transportation in my life. When David left for Ohio I had to cut my hours because I had no ride home at night. I am spoiled. I am an 85 year old woman trapped in a 25 year old body. I'm just a girl because they won't let me drive late at night. Because nobody walks in L.A. God knows what will happen when I get to Ohio and I have to use the bus because my intricate network of drivers will collapse into one. One that doesn't want to drive me anywhere he doesn't have to.

I also happen to live in a small town with good weather so I mostly walk when I need to get somewhere and there is no one to drive me. From one end of town to the other it is 30 minutes,from my house to my in-laws also 30. The library, the thrift store, the coffee shop, my pedicurist, the grocery store,fast food all 10 minute walks. Life is good.

So in conclusion the "get a job ball" is rolling, the "wedding ball"...not really rolling at all. It's just sort of sitting there and I am poking it with a stick. I am driving my future, my destiny. Things are looking like... the job climate in Ohio...less than ideal. Oh, won't someone please take the wheel for me? I will pay for the gas I promise. I just need to go to Nordie's first.