June Gloom

Is it June already? Doesn't that mean it's summer? Then why is it raining? Every other day rain and thunder and lightning. Only thing I love about the weather is the humidity. I wish I could tell you I'm out conquering Cleveland (when it's not raining) but the only thing I've conquered is the Style Network's schedule. I like the Style Network because it's So-Cal based. The make-over shows shop at my favorite malls back home. It's like being tuned in to the sunny, retail happiness of my youth while I ignore the fact that I am a grown-up now.

David bought a newer,automatic car for me to use. But I haven't traded in my California license for an Ohio one. I learned that I have to relinquish my California license when I get my new one. I wasn't down with that. They don't know how hard I worked for that license. I promise I won't use it ever again BUT IT'S MINE. No new license means I'm not going anywhere and meeting people or becoming a better driver before it starts to snow.

I'm not exercising five days a week like I should. That means I'm not sleeping properly. You don't need a doctorate to figure out I'm holding myself back with a stack of excuses. Holding back, sitting in this basement-level hobbit hole isn't doing wonders for my blogging either.Yet, I continue to blame others for my problems. When I say others I mean David. I've got nothing. Nothing to add to this mess I made. I'm going to check the mail and the gossip blogs.